One of the worst parts about growing up, apart from being absolutely on our own, is that we lose friends, mostly all of them, one by one. No matter how thick we may be with them, the moment we step into adult life, all of them disappear and in all this we lose a part of ourselves, a part that went away with those people.
Join me in my saga. Be seated with a lion heart because I am going to cut open my wounds and may be it’s time to face the reality.
You can count on me like 1 2 3 4 and I will be there….
Kuch yaad aaya i.e. Do you remember this?
It’s being a long time my friends since we last contacted each other.
Since we had those hangouts, that masti, playing pranks, mocking at each other and everything else too.
Unfortunately, we are so busy and living such different lives, that I don’t know if this being around you is a reality anymore.
Now your life is foreign to me. I no longer know what’s going on in it and I wish things were different but Life happened.
I hate that I don’t know how you are, what you are doing with your life.
People used to ask me how you are and I have to tell them I honestly don’t know.
Sometimes I come to hear about you from some other people.
Sometimes I saw your pics and posts on facebook, watsapp, linkedin, etc.
with your new friends and colleagues.
It’s only them I come to know a part of what all is going on in your lives.
But what about all that going inside you and other that is behind the scenes?
One day this gap would be too big to bridge and
I feel I will be replaced by new people in your life.
I feel insecure at some moments.
I sometimes feel you don’t need me anymore or my role in your life is over.
I fear I will lost you forever. But it’s the learning you gave that keeps me positive in those times.
There are moments when something reminds me of you and I want to let you know, but I step back because I don’t know how much you would like that. I don’t want to disturb you in your schedule which is unknown to me. I want you to enjoy life to the fullest like a free bird, to enjoy your personal space for which I freed you from any promise.
Life has separated us, but I still care about you more than you may know.
We don’t talk anymore but still I will be there in a heartbeat. If the day ever comes you find yourself struggling, I hope you reach out to me. You will always matter to me, no matter where life takes us. You already know what your smile mean to me.
I miss being around you. I miss those hangouts and the value time we used to spend together. Tears were about to roll down my eye when I said you bbye when we met聽 last.
My life is incomplete without you but
it doesn’t mean I will stop living. Life will go on and so will my heart but the vacuum your absence created will always be there.
I wouldn’t be who I am today without your friendship.聽
You made me learn the true meaning of life, friendship, smile, trust and a lot other things.
Thank you for being a part of my life.
To the friends I thought would be with me for life, I hope you took the time to read this. If you did, please know I am speaking to you and I mean every word of this. I really do still care and I do miss you all.聽 I recognize that life had different plans for us than we planned for as children. I am mature enough to know we can’t keep everyone we would like to in our lives. But little things remind me of you and I will think of you at the most random of times. And I hope, if nothing else, you remember this: I will always be there for you.
To everyone else reading this, I hope you will share this story for the friends you lost along life’s path. I wrote this as much for you as I did for me. May be, like me, you think too much time has passed, that it would be strange to reach out after all this time. May be you are too nervous about how these friends would react. I hope this letter will help to give you words and the courage you have been searching for.